If I think back to one moment in 2016 that really felt true to who I was, I immediately go back to our trip to Colorado we took this past June. We hiked, we drank, we indulged in many different local activities. Plenty of ice cream and varieties of beer. We laughed, we sweat, we danced, we chatted with strangers and heard different stories. I really feel blessed to be able to experience life with my husband, my best friend. Things are easy for us, and traveling is a time when I find we are best together. Trying new things, being active, and taking in our beautiful surroundings of places we've never been. Our trip to Colorado was the perfect timing this year. Right after I closed a chapter of a job of 8 years, and right before starting school again to become a licensed cosmetologist. It was up in the air for me to decide who I was, and become who I was meant to be. That desk job was never my style. I was breaking free and starting fresh.
Along with starting fresh came a new routine, a new work load, and a who new way of life. New stress. My entire schedule, our entire schedule was flipped upside down. Eric is the one home most of the time, which meant most of the home "duties" fall on him. He has been absolutely amazing and I wouldn't be able to do any of this without him. Its definitely difficult. School is great, I'm loving every minute of it. My passion is growing and pouring out of my soul I feel like some days. It's crazy how happy you can be in one area of your life, but in other areas you can be struggling and fighting off demons on the regular. Those demons are always, always to do with my weight. Over the past 3 or so years I've managed to get down from the heaviest I have ever weighed in my life, and shed 80 pounds. Well, now a bit of weight has crept back on and I'm really losing my mind. I was so happy, so strong, so balanced at that lower weight. I've got this urge to become myself again. To truly live and look how I feel inside. I'm finally living the life I want to live, but only missing one side of it. My weight has always been a struggle for me but I have grown so much and am always evolving that I know I can battle this, and overcome this struggle for good. I know I can reach my goal weight, and balance this lifestyle for the rest of my life.
And thats where this blog comes in. I need a place to hold myself accountable, and to document even just a snippet of my days, as I work at rediscovering who I am, who I will become, and who I will evolve into. 2016 was just a start for me. 2017 is going to be a whole new year, where I may not even recognize myself compared to my past, but I'm only looking forward from here.
Cheers to self discovery and hard work.
xoxo
