Black Hole - The Internet

Pinterest - I'm sure everyone can relate when 3 hours go by and all you've done is browse Pinterest. For me half the time I don't even pin anything! I just gaze at my laptop into oblivion of at home cleaning supplies and do it yourself scarf making. Seriously. Life would be so much more productive WITHOUT Pinterest. Sure it gives you ideas and all these resources at your fingertips. Great! Brilliant! You know what it also gives you? A shorter life. Kudos to all of you that pin diy projects and then actually do them. I, on the other hand probably pin 5 items in a 2 hour span that I am sucked into this black hole. That's not being productive. Anyways, I've backed off of Pinterest for the most part, lately I've only been going on to see what the people I follow are pinning. But it's still taking up a good amount of time when I'm on my computer. Less Pinterest would mean less computer!

It's time to back off of Pinterest. Emily, step away from the P button on your bookmarks bar.

xo

Happy Friday! Bring on the weekend!

This week has been a LONG week. I sure am glad it's Friday!! Bring on the weekend and good times with friends.

Today I thought I would share some of my fiancé Eric's amazing talent. Eric is a graphic designer and illustrator. If I could have the amount of talent he has in the tip of his pinky I would be happy. But I don't, so I live through him. :) He does freelance work so please feel free to reach out if you need something designed or illustrated! *All images are not to be copied or used without written approval*

Have a great weekend!!

xo

Throwback Thursday: Music Edition

Brand New - Song Playlist

The other night I was laying in bed trying to think of something I could do on this ol blog weekly. Everyone does the "throwback thursday" on instagram with old photos and I thought, I want to do that on my blog but instead of old photos, I'm going to talk about music I listened to years ago. Some will actually be what I still listen to. Let's just say I'm a creature of habit and still listen to a lot of what I listened to when I was in high school. I rarely listen to the radio. If you are a radio rat. Please stop reading now. (completely kidding. I don't judge you by your music taste. usually) I have an extremely wide taste in music. I will usually give everything a try but to be honest, this girl has an old soul. Any given day you will find me either listening to something my grandparents grew up listening to, or something more current but definitely alternative and not on the radio. I'll admit, I'm probably what you call a music snob. I like what a like, and I know what I don't like. Sometimes I just wish more people would appreciate real music. Music that you have to make with your hands, voice, and soul. Not a computer. If you can sing, play a guitar, and stomp your foot on a drum all at once. I love you.

Now. To get to the part where I tell you about a band I listened to years ago, was obsessed with, and probably still obsess over. Then you'll listen to the band hopefully and at least hear something new, or if you don't like it maybe you'll find a related artist or it will inspire you to get out there and listen to something different. Even something not current.

Brand New

Brand New was formed in 2000. The band consists of vocalist/guitarist/lyricist Jesse Lacey (swoon), guitarist/vocalist/lyricist Vincent Accardi, bassist Garrett Tierney, drummer Brian Lane, and guitarist/keyboardist Derrick Sherman.

Holy cow, I didn't think it would be that hard to sit down and blog about this band but I'm finding it extremely difficult to pick songs to post on here. I've seen Brand New play live twice and it made me love them even more than what I did to begin with. Honestly, every song they have from the beginning to now I have a deep connection with. My biggest recommendation would to just go to spotify, search Brand New and start from their first album and work your way to current. Obviously not everyone has enough interest or time to be doing that so I will try and pick a few songs that I really love or that were popular for them and let you take it from there.

Your Favorite Weapon - this was their first album and is full of angst about life and ex girlfriends. Which was totally fitting for me when I first started listening to them when I was 16. Isn't that the story of every teens life in some way? Trying to find a way to fit in and be loved? 

The first song I would recommend is probably one of the most famous songs from their first album, or at least what got them on the map. Jude Law and a Semester Abroad. I don't even need to say anything about this song, just listen to the lyrics. :) Another gem from this album is Soco Amaretto Lime. This song goes straight to my core. Especially when you are at an age when you really don't want to grow up. This song is so good.

On to the next album...Deja Entendu. Released in 2003

If I could only recommend 1 album I would recommend it would be this one. Seriously. Turn off the lights and let this play. This album is a bit more mature than their first. The intro called Tautou is killer. Hauntingly good and definitely sets the tone for the album. "I'm sinking like a stone in the sea, I'm burning like a bridge for your body"

One of my favorite songs from this album is Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades. I love how Jesse paints a picture with his lyrics and really draws you in to the story he's telling. The background yelling and vocals only add to the "chaos" of this song and I love it.
The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot is another personal favorite. Deeply depressing but so moving at the same time. 

"You are calm and reposed
Let your beauty unfold
Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones
Spring keeps you ever close
You are second-hand smoke
You are so fragile and thin, standing trial for your sins
Holding on to yourself the best you can
You are the smell before rain
You are the blood in my veins

Call me a safe bet, I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive, only hoping as time goes, you can forget"

The Devil And God Are Raging Inside Me. Released in 2006.

As you can see there was some time between this album and the previous. They toured and took a break and came back with a "WTF" reaction from me. This album was different than any they had before and I loved every bit of it. This album shook me in a different way. The guitar, the way he sang, it all had a different feel. I'm sure there were some that didn't like this "less pop punk" approach but I loved it. It's awesome to see growth and sound change. To me this album fills my soul.

I'm having a really hard time choosing songs to recommend from this album. (shocking right?) Millstone is probably one of my personal favorites. The drums are great and the lyrics cut me deeply. "I used to know the name of every person I'd kissed. Now I made this bed and I can't fall asleep in it" so good.

This album definitely has a lot darker feel compared to the others. Jesus Christ is a great song. It's deep, melodic, and one of my favs. I really wish I could take a peak into his head and see where these lyrics come from. Seriously.
"Do you believe you're missin' out
That everything good is happening somewhere else?
But with nobody in your bed
The night's hard to get through

And I will die all alone
And when I arrive I won't know anyone

Well, Jesus Christ, I'm alone again
So what did you do those three days you were dead?
'cause this problem's gonna last more than the weekend.

Well, Jesus Christ, I'm not scared to die,
I'm a little bit scared of what comes after
Do I get the gold chariot?
Do I float through the ceiling?"

Daisy. Released in 2009

I'll start off by saying I love this album, however  I think it's drastically different than anything else. If you aren't into screaming and all that stuff, this album probably isn't for you but I would recommend you give it a try. It's definitely something die hard fans can appreciate, and even took me a few listens before I "got" it. One of my favorite things about this album is when he sings into his electric guitar. It's amazing what you can do with an instrument that its not initially intended for.

The song Vices opens the album and lets be honest. It's intense. BUT I love it. Its in your face and if you really listen to the lyrics, it's insane. "She said goodbye to the ground and jumped" Just brace yourself. :)

The last song I will leave you with is called Noro. I love the different tones and yelling and slamming and jamming that goes on in this song. A lot going on but it all comes together and works. 

"Why doesn't anyone in Noro sleep?
Are they all just scared of their dreams?
When they lay their heads down at night,
What are they haunted by?
Why won't anyone just close their eyes?
Could it hurt them to rest for a while?
Do they need their friend to be a lover,
Or their lover to be a friend?

(Because)
I'm on my way to hell
(Well I've tried, god knows that I've tried)
I'm on my way to hell
(One time, two time, three time, again)

Sitting duck
Running out of luck
And our car's stuck on a train crossing"

Brand New - Song Playlist

This ended up being way longer than intended...I just couldn't narrow it down any less! Hope you enjoyed! :)

If you have a band or artist you'd like me to blog about or feature let me know. I'm open to learning about new music and I love hearing what you love!
xo

Thankful

If you couldn't tell, the past few weeks have been pretty "meh" for me. Exhaustion, lack of motivation, moody moods, rain, and just not feeling like myself. I've kind of let our home slip a little. Eric and I usually keep a pretty clean home, I don't mind the laundry, dusting, mopping, but dishes. UGH. I hate doing the dishes. I don't know what it is. Maybe it's my personality, I can't really sit still that long, and without a dish washer, having to stand at the sink for several minutes washing dishes just really annoys me. Obviously I could do the dishes more often and I would be stuck for less time in front of the sink. Instead, I let them pile up. and lately when I say pile up, I literally mean pile up. Like no free space on the counter or sink due to the large amount of dirty dishes.

With feeling cruddy as of late, they've REALLY piled up. So bad that yesterday I had to wash a spoon in order to eat my cereal in the morning. I'm not ashamed, I know none of y'all leave your house spotless 24 hours a day. I just know it's something I need to work on. This is where being thankful comes in...

After a hell of a day at work Tuesday I had the task of doing the dishes looming over my head. Eric hasn't been able to help out around the house with his injury but he has been feeling a bit better as of late. When I left for work in the morning he had mentioned he was going to try and clean up a bit. I received a text message from him that he didn't think he was going to be able to stand and do the dishes which was 100% ok. I understood and I knew I would just have to suck it up and wash them when I got home. Why is it that a crappy day at work only magnifies other tasks you need to do and makes them 10x worse? Later in the day he text me again saying I didn't have to worry about the dishes now because he had done them. Gosh, I love him. Sometimes there is nothing better than a simple gesture like that to make this girl smile big and remember why I am so thankful to be spending the rest of my life with a guy that would do anything for me. Even if it was a simple thing like doing the dishes.

Coming home to a sink like this makes me smile big time! (Do you see our cute little terrariums? Eric is growing some dragon plant and I have cactus!)

This is my attempt at chalk art and looking on the bright side of all this rain. Eric likes it, I think it looks silly but I'm not about to get out my ruler and shit to make fancy art. ;)

xo

Lets talk about tattoos

Tattoos. Always such a touchy subject for people. I don't get it. I don't have tattoos I will start off by saying that. Do I want them? HELL YES. Do I care about other people and their choice to have tattoos? NO. I have always been more of an "artistic" person. I love makeup, hair, design, art and anything to do with it. I tend to pick products I've never tried based on if I'm drawn to their packaging or an advertisement. I like art, and I like when it makes me feel something. I love girly things, but I love metal and other "alternative" things. Will getting a tattoo make people think differently of me? Probably. Do I care? To be honest, not really. To me tattoos can be beautiful pieces of art. They can be an extension of your story. I've been through a lot in my life and I want to express that. I think people that appreciate tattoos completely get that.

Don't get me wrong, there are a lot of TERRIBLE tattoos out there. A LOT. My plan is to not be in that group. I'm doing my research, and I'm willing to pay money because you get what you pay for.

The blog community has really opened my eyes to women, mothers, daughters, ect that are heavily tattooed and aren't criminals, lowlifes, or bad people that our society paints a picture of. They aren't conforming to what society "thinks" a mother should look like. They are living as true inspiring individuals that happen to have tattoos. It doesn't change their generosity, talents, or intelligence. I hope someday I will live in a world that doesn't look down on people for being different.

To the most annoying question there is "what about when you are older?" What about when I'm older? I'm going to be wrinkly and old anyway right? So tattoos will only make me cooler right? I mean who wants to be just old and wrinkly? I want to be old, wrinkly, and cool! ;)

xo

April Showers Bring...

Crappy moods. Yup. The month of April has really been a gloomy one. With Eric being home going on week 2 now from his injury, he hasn't been in the best of moods. This non stop rain isn't helping either. Now I can sit here and rag on and on about my crappy mood about how right now work hasn't been great, sleeping hasn't been great (currently on an air mattress in the living room) and all the other nonsense that life has thrown at me, but I won't. That's it. Time to move on, and hopefully with sunshine and warm weather around the corner (key word is hopefully) things will be looking up. I don't have much else to say other than I finally hit the 20 pound weight loss mark. *holla* and I'm in shock with how fast our wedding is approaching. I have a feeling the next few months are going to be a blur but it will all be worth it when we are laying on the beach in Jamaica and I will have my best friends last name. :)

Here are some Instagram photos as of lately - give me a follow for lots of cute puppy pics. :) mlemlemlee

xo

Rough couple of days.

Just when I thought life was getting back on track we had a curveball thrown our way.

Last weekend (Saturday) Eric had fallen twice while playing hockey. He was in pain but not a lot of pain and over the next few days the pain went away and he felt better. Fast forward to Wednesday night. After work Eric went to play hockey, but it was just a casual skate nothing crazy. Well, he fell again. You know the saying third times a charm? This third charm ended us up in the ER Wednesday night. He came home from hockey in pain, but was able to tolerate it, just figured his bum and leg were a little stiff but he was able to sit and walk just fine. Around 8 pm he suddenly went from tolerable discomfort to extreme pain and a swollen right butt cheek. We decided something was wrong and we needed to get to the ER. After an x-ray it was determined that he had a very large hematoma but nothing was broken. Two shots of pain medicine later and the pain wasn't getting better. Due to the amount of pain he was feeling they decided to do a CT to see if there was something fractured they weren't seeing. That came back clear, thankfully. However my poor guy's pain was not going away.

After we were there a few hours we decided to try and get back home to get Eric comfortable. Shortly after getting Eric to stand we realized we were not going anywhere. The two shots of pain medicine were not touching his pain so we decided to have Eric admitted so he could get the good stuff. He got some morphine and we were moved upstairs to his room. Eric's overnight nurse was very sweet, and her name happened to be Emily C...for some reason this made me feel very comfortable. I ended up going home around 2am to let Banksy out and went back to the hospital at 5am to see how he was doing. After I had left the nurse informed me that she had to call the dr. because the morphine wasn't allowing Eric to be comfortable so they were able to give him something in addition to that. It was a very long night followed by a long day in the hospital but thankfully as each hour passed it was getting a little better. The dr. came in to see how he was doing and approved Eric to go home. The easiest way he explained what a hematoma is, is that Eric landed right where your sciatic nerve runs up behind your right hip bone and that impact has caused a lot blood to fill in his butt muscle which has caused him to be super swollen and in pain.

We were able to leave the hospital at 4 on Thursday afternoon and get Eric home. Thursday evening was ok, then around midnight the extreme pain came back and I had to call Eric's mom who thankfully is a nurse. We weren't sure if we were heading back to the hospital or not. We got the heating pad on him because we were told that would help get the blood moving away from his butt and that seemed to start helping a bit.

This entire time Banksy our pup was going crazy over the fact that he couldn't play or snuggle with Eric. around 2:15 am Friday morning I took Banksy for a walk hoping to tire him out so he would stop whining.

Around 3 am Eric was a littler more comfortable and we were all able to get a couple hours of sleep. Friday was much better after keeping heat on it on and off throughout the day. Eric was able to get up and walk around with the help of crutches. I know that made him feel good. It's really hard to see him in so much pain, and having to go through what were the most painful couple of days in his life.

Last night and today we have seen major improvement and his mood has picked up a little bit. :) He's been able to stand a bit with the crutches and we even made it upstairs for a shower. :)

I've been sleeping on the couch along with Banksy so that Eric can sleep comfortably. After a long night at home Thursday night I woke up to see Banksy sitting in a chair looking out the window. I will never forgot how Banksy acted that night. It was like Banksy could feel Eric's stress and pain from a room away. Seeing him looking through that window just warmed my heart. This dog has big love for Eric and it's amazing to see.




Now that Eric can lay on his back comfortably we are allowing Banksy to lay in bed with him and I know they are both super happy about that. :)

Thank you to all who have sent well wishes to him. It's been a really tough couple of days for Eric so I know it really means a lot to him.

xo